Day TWENTY SEVEN. Want or Choice.

Day Twenty SEVEN. Want or Choice. This morning I had a terrible dream. I'll spare you of the details, but I woke up in the middle of the dream, in one of those "where am I moments?" and it took awhile for me to analyze and get over something that seemed so real. [Note to self: do not eat dried lavendar profiteroles before bed weird dreams may occur.] I decided to go for a jog/walk to get some blood flowing in me. On my jog/walk i had that thought that there is a difference between Want and Choice. I can want something (happiness, love, to be the best baker) or i can make the choice to be it (I can choose to be happy, choose to love others, choose to be the best baker). Choice is an action, while want still waits on the curb, hoping for whatever it is to come by. I'm so deep I know. After lazilly getting ready for the day, I made it to school to learn about Dairy in a lecture. It was a good class with samples to eat....clotted creme and dulce de leche to eat on SCONES. My first one in England! It was a delicate light bun, with a lightly crunchy outter shell (like a biscuit), and a soft muffin like middle. Chef gave us enough clotted cream & dulche for 3 scones, but there was only 1 scone each. No shame, I cleaned my plate. I am going to have to invest in clotted cream, that was amazingly creamy. I really like dairy in all its varieties. We also learned about fats & oils. He told us that in a McDonalds ice cream, there is lard & vegetable oil to help it hold its shape. Um yep, never getting one of those again. He also told us vegetarians that we arent really vegetarians. For example, in natural food colorings, there are beetle heads and other insect parts. As well as all vegetables are grown in gardens using manure so we are all eating something off another animal that who knows what that animal ate to get that kind of .... you know what out. The classmate from the Netherlands did not know the word manure meant. She was shocked to find out. Tonight we had a demonstration class for another Charlotte Cake. I've determined that Charlotte is a cake made of sponge, molded in a cake ring with mousse and decoration, as now this will be our second charlotte...this time we are back to fruit. Ugh. And I will be giving this one away...I dont need to waste calories on it. We make it Saturday, no Instagram pics of food for a few days. Tomorrow we have no class!!! But I signed up for a guest lecture of a local pastry chef at 630 at the school. The rest of the day will be spent studying. Friday we have a Lecture, and Saturday back to baking & a demonstration class. Light class wise, but heavy on the study. To want to study, or choose to study. Now that really is the question.